I dont use this journal very often. I dont update my page very often. i have gotten stuck on a painting. i started it, then met the person, before i finished so i can not seem to finish it now, because i want to to be perfect, because he is real. And so in my dealings with him, i have developed a crush, and being a little weird anyway, i think i freaked him out. So now have no contact. Which is not really a problem i hardly knew him, but i can not finish that painting! I cant seem to complete anything. I am going crazy. I even quit my job. Have i completely lost my mind!?